Whew~~Its 6 o’clock morning with a tired heart and body but still not sleep yet or u can say after this..Actually i also dont know what to say cause quite blur..Anywhere thx for u guy’s concern..I do appreciate..I always remember the person who treat me well and forget the person just pass by me..ok its time to rest..good nite ~~Zzzzz……
I started think about what did happened on me yesterday night? I mad, i cried and everyone thought i was drunk but i didnt..With a tired heart,maybe i really need to back to my hometown for sometime to help my dad do something..Whew~~Just received a phone call from my hometown friend,he know alot of me but he still treat me very well and he really did it..He ‘ve been waiting for me more than 2 years,he just told me find him whenever i need his help and ask me back 1st,feel so touched..And just talk to steve is a guy who treat e like sister and he gonna married in this december..Congratulation to him~~he dated with his wife more than 10 years and she’s the only one in his life,what a greatest guy in this world…Anywhere i know wht to do now…
Already 40+hours didnt take any food as well but still dont feel hungry,just feel like very tired..Im start thinking abt what am i doing now and i dont understand myself as well..so confusing now..What should i do rite now? Its time to relax my mind? I had think a lot and did lot stupid thing i never do before..I have start thinking abt this..Im like so bad now…Anywhere still thanks for my best friends who always support me~~
hmm..I slept for long hours today,i have no strenght to talk and face the problems..Something had changing around me these few days..Sad,im really tired..Feel very sick today,not even take any food and just sleep..I dono what im think abt now??Thx stephanie and sorry abt i didnt answer ur phone call cos i wan sleeping,will text u tomorow k?? im going to sleep again
I dont know what happened with myself cos i feel that sometimes i really hate man,always think that they such a lyers maybe of my 1st bf..I dont know how to believe in guys anymore or let them take care of me??? I know i just hate it cos many girls cry bcos the man…i feel bad..ready to drunk to9..im damn down and angry to9…
Well i do have a lotsa dreams b4 but i know its will never come true coz i dont have much time to explain..Somebody said i will not have a better life till i die then what should i answer?? Anywhere i want to thanks to justin,kleine,david,cyrus,wan yen ,jin,denny and some i duno their name…muackss
Im really appreaciate the comment from all of my sweetest friend,i feel touched coz not even just send me comment here to cheer me up and i did received many called and msg from some of my good friends..I really cried abt it and just want to know how long i can stay in this world?? Im upset and fed up with many things,maybe its myself problem or maybe can say im not matured enough so that why make me to negative way..whocan lead me on?my parents?nope coz i dont want they worry abt me and 2nd thing is my mum,she has health problem for so many years..Everytime Accompany my mum to hospital to take the report sure i have to pretend like nothing even i know how bad is the reports..Maybe my life will like my mum,im really heartache when i see her cry..Last friday was damn drunk with friend untill sunday nite,cried for those few nite and days..I really dont know what to do?? Tired with freelance life,love and everything but i do appreciate my friends..They accompany me whenever im sad but sometimes im also need to pretend like nothing cos i know everybody also have their own problems..Everybody thought im very enjoy and happy all the time actually whose know when im really sad?? Do u think i laugh ,i smile and thats mean im really happy?? anywhere gona go out for a while to meet my friend…Thx for u all…muackss
So tired and down this few days,lotsa thing happened to me…I cant accept every single of things,feel like want to die…huh so stupid isit??I duno wht to do?blur….
Hmm…I have a lotsa things want to write in my 1st blogs but dont know how to start it..Its really confusing huh~~^.^Finally can get my good rest after my 28 day’s roadshow without restday,its really tired…Whole month just like a machine must woke up earlier and sleep earlier,msg my boss in the early morning to reported everything,stone with few gals who worked with me:P Everyday just like blur blur…In the same time we get to know more abt each other ..Its time to say something of myself rite? sometimes i really hate myself which did lot stupid thing and have a lotsa negative thinking..Im confusing abt myself,feel like need somebody to guide me,i dont know hows my future…I need to know more abt life and myself..The most important thing is i feel like i really lost my freedom:<
